Loving ain’t easy. Loving God ain’t easier, Why? Because you cannot love someone you do not know, it is really that simple. Every day I try to work on my relationship with God, most times it is most certainly not perfect, (The Lord is patient and merciful with me, because hmmm), I get easily distracted, being a Christian is a hard walk, don’t let anybody fool you into thinking it’s all fun and games.
I struggle a lot with developing intimacy with God, this I believe was the original plan of God’s interaction with mankind, a loving and deeply intimate relationship, like a marriage if you will. When I get the time to read my bible(ever so often) and I read about God’s original plan for mankind, I get disheartened about what could have been and excited about what will be, I literally do a happy dance when I read the promises of God. Developing a love relationship with God requires brokenness, humility and openness, you need to see yourself for what you are, lost and in need of saving, you need to be humble enough to let the spirit of God work in you and through you, to teach you and give you wisdom. You have to be open enough to say OK Lord, here I am, this is me, I may not be perfect, but I’m willing to allow you use me and take what you created and make of it as you originally designed, teach me how to love you and how to do your will.
This is what God wants from us to desire him above everything else, that is why he tells us to seek first the kingdom of God, and its righteousness, that is why in Jesus’s first letter to the seven churches in the book of Revelations more specifically to the church at Ephesus, he tells them to remember their first love. That is why he told the children of Israel, to have no other God’s or graven images asides him, graven images are not just limited to gods of iron and ivory, it could mean your social status, your ambitions, your accomplishments, the balance in your bank account, even wholesome things like the time you spend working out or hanging out with your friends and family, volunteering at church or at the homeless shelter, anything you place before God is an idol.
To be honest I never really understood why God wants us to love him above everything else, I never really understood why we should love God. God is certainly worthy of praise because he is good, he is kind, he is a miracle worker and a covenant keeper but beyond that God as your creator, knows that the best things that can come out of your life and to your life,can come only from having a loving relationship with him (Ephesians 8:28). God doesn’t want us to go through life alone, groping in the dark lost on our purpose, used and abused by people who are even more lost and confused than us, used by the enemy as punching bags, defeated and weighed down by the trials and the challenges of this world, he wants to lead us by still waters, restore our souls and give us peace, that causes us to have joy even if we are going through financial storms, or even when we are depressed because we don’t know what our future holds.
When you love someone, you like to do what makes them happy, even when it causes you some discomfort, how much more God, whose word is sure, and has promised us that all things will work together for our advantage if we love him and walk according to his purpose for our lives, this means that sometimes when he tells us to do things even if we don’t really like it, or it was not the path we initially wanted for ourselves, we must trust that whatever happens it will only be to our advantage.
Desiring to truly know God for ourselves (not just what a pastor says) is one of the best things we can do for ourselves, if we truly believe that God is the creator of the universe, the beginning and the end of everything, the one who sent his son to die for us (something none of us have deserved or can do anything to deserve) and his word shows us that he desires this fellowship with us then what is stopping us? Are we so distracted by the cares of this world that, serving and loving God wholeheartedly seems so insignificant or something we want to leave to our old age when we have made all the money? Or is it that we care about what people will say? How they will see us? We may come across as too holy, rigid and prude?
I always seem to write about seeking God, because the truth is when I write, I am writing them to myself, in my 30 years of being in this earth I have to come realize that being in right standing with God is extremely important to my well-being as a human being. I am always going on a journey every day to be closer to my creator, I hope and my prayer is that when I write, my words reflect my deepest emotions and thoughts and it helps you someway in your walk with God too.